Fucked

You ever been warned of the situation, but due to your own ignorance you go ahead?

Let’s just say in the recent turn of events I’ve done just that.

You know when your friend get together and they say ”don’t trust him girl” but you do it anyway!

He seems different with me, I tell myself!

He told me the truth about himself!

Admitting his flaws, and how he’d have to work harder to be with me!

So against the council of all of my friends, i decided to go forward….

And I let him in, one step at a time!

How can I have been so naive, making such a foolish mistake?

I’ve avoided target after target, somehow he made it through!

Rendering me helpless, weak, blind to the facts!

Wanting to see past all of what I knew to be true!

Down a dark road of loneliness!

It’s my weakness visible to all and I just don’t know it?

Or am the fool? To be played over?

When being dealt the hands of life I seem to fall short…

The love department is not only the hardest one for me its also the one I stay away from…

Turning me cold and dark!

Smile honey, they say but they don’t know the hurt I feel.

The pain he have caused me! Year after year I find myself lost!

Know where closer then the day I started as just a teen!

Never having true love in my life!

Never being the object of any ones affection…

am I not capable of being loved by another!

Used and disregarded seems to be what they plan for me…

Why is this the hand I was given?

I ask over and over!!!!

Why… Should take the advice of my girlfriends?

I wanted to take the road less traveled…

The road of hope for something better!

It’s shakey but I thought it would smooth out!

So tell me why I get Fuck for believing?

Fucked for trusting?

Fucked for loving?

Fucked for giving?

Fucked for welcoming?

Fucked for opening up?

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Author: monroecarter

It’s hard to explain who I am it changes everyday. I hope you stay tune to read more about me as I go a long my journey. Hopefully my story can explain and show you who Monroe Carter really is. Who is Monroe Carter?

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